Welcome to my blog!
A lot of people have blogs nowadays. Many of them have some sort of theme or agenda such as green living, vegan diet, raising kids or raising goats. And a lot of Christian blogs have the purpose to minister to the world in one area of faith or another.
Mine isn’t anything like them. My blog is simply my way of processing stuff in my head that I had to let out somewhere. You might call it a brain fart. 🙂
I’ve never really had a need to do a blog before, and I was content because I have been blessed with a husband who has the patience to listen to my musings and help me process things as I think out loud. This works fine for the regular daytime hours, but not so well when I have insomnia.
I occasionally wake up in the wee hours of the night with thoughts and ideas that I just can’t put aside and go back to sleep. The problem with that is, like most people, Paul, my loving husband, is usually asleep at the time. Bless his heart, all these years, he’s been kind enough to wake up with me, and we’d have wonderful conversations uninterrupted by our kids.
But as time marches on, we are no longer as young as we used to be. And as I enter the mid-life womanly changes, my insomnia is happening more frequently. I couldn’t help but notice that lately, Paul’s eyes are bloodshot, and the poor man really needs more sleep. And so, out of love and kindness for my husband, I’m trying out a new way to process my thoughts. With this wonderful blog, Paul can continue to sleep and wake up later to read my thoughts and give me feedback. (Sleep well, Paul!)
So here I am writing a weblog and sharing my thoughts with you so my husband can get some sleep. Hopefully you’re reading this at a reasonable hour. But if you’re reading this because you have insomnia, you have my empathy.
It’s a bit scary for me to be writing things down like this, knowing how my opinions and thoughts, particularly about God and His love for us, have changed so much over time. Friends have told me for years that I should write a book, but I’m not sure if I’d like having my thoughts frozen in time for all the world to see when I may not even think that way anymore years later. I mean, just thinking about some of the beliefs I held, how I had dealt with some situations, and things I had said in the past, can make me cringe sometimes. But so far they’re just memories in my head and can be left in the past. If I write things down, it can continue to exist somewhere in some form, and God forbids, can be used against me later, just like emails. :-O That’s discomforting to me.
And so I ask you to keep in mind as you read my blog that I am a growing person (hopefully in the maturing sense, and not the widening-girth sense), and that each post I write here is like a photograph of me in one moment in time, and not necessary the full essence of who I am all the time; that to get a true sense of who I am, you’d need to travel with me (via this blog or in real life) over a period of time.
So then, if you want to journey life with me for a while, welcome to my blog!